I GOT THAT A LOT

Hello guys!
It's been a long time that I didn't do all this 'writing thingy'. So my brain is quite a little bit freeze to find the words when i'm start to write.

Back to my topic, I GOT THAT A LOT.
What do you got a lot in your entire life? I'm sure there's might be something that we got a lot in our life. But what is it? Personally for me there are so many things that I had got and keep get it over and over again till now.

First thing that the most I got is people always confuse between me and my brother. Every time I met people that rarely meet me, they always think that I'm much older than my brother. I don't get any idea how they can say and think like that. In fact, my brother is 2 years older than me. How could they said like that. Am I look too older? Hahaha.

Beside that, I always got the same question by people. What's that question?
Whenever my family attended the wedding, usually I will be the ones who will take care and look for my nieces and nephews. Much more like babysitter at any event that we attended. And there must be at least one person that approach me and ask "is this your children?". That question is always killing me. Every time we go back home, my family will teasing me with that question. Sometimes quite annoying for me.

What the other thing that I got a lot? hmm, of course whenever I go to shopping complex to find for pants or shoes, I always told by the seller " sorry, we don't have that size". That is the most heart wrenching statement that I had heard in my life and keep repeating over and over again. Can you imagine that when you finally find the things that you really want and you like it, but suddenly there is no size available for you. I always had that feeling. I don't think that I'm too small but for sure when I want to buy something that I like, there's no size for me. 

Apart from that, I always being misjudged by people. Whenever I asked my friends what is their first perception towards me, most of them will said that they did not expect that I'm a such 'crazy' person. They usually misjudged me by thinking that I'm a shy and arrogant person. Hahahaha. For those who know me, they will know exactly how I am. I'm a person that never have that kind of shy and arrogant things in me. They will see that I'm a completely different person when they know me better.

That's all for now guys. Thank you for having your time reading my journal. 

Do you know what it's like to be judged?
Before you judge someone by their appearance, you should know what actually inside that person. Just because others have labeled them with so many kinds of words, doesn't mean that really says anything about that person. Most of us don't take their time to understand others and usually rely on what they hear from rumors, or what their eyes let them see. 

Because eyes sometimes can be deceiving.

As human, we tend to hide our personal information away from other individuals. Don't want to get sympathize by other people. Don't want to show the flaws of our life to people. That's also happened to me. Sometimes, people might see us having the most perfect life ever, but how would they know if we're currently struggling or not?

This far in life, I've been hurt and used but no one really knows. Most assume that I have the most colorful and cheerful life. In reality, I am just putting on a facade for the entire world to see.
No one would expect for me to grow up without a complete family like others because of how positive I am about practically everything. I owe it to my mother. She has been through so much in her life, but she always had a positive outlook in life. I try to block out all the negatives thought that I'd encounter. Without her molding me to be positive, I would be a negative thinker like the majority of people in this world.

Sometimes, it was hurt to being misjudged by people around us. Misjudge by being too friendly or by being too cheerful. It could be that it is the only way that can make the mind forget about every hard times that someone being through.

So,stop making assumptions or misjudge someone by their appearance or the way how they behave. Because for every actions, there are their own story lie behind it.

A WALK TO REMEMBER

A WALK TO REMEMBER

I'm sure many of you had watched this movie before starring by Shane West and Mandy Moore. Or maybe had read the book written by Nicholas Spark. If you're not, I suggests that all of you need to open new tab right now and search this movie. Rest assured that all of you will definitely in love with this movie. The most interesting thing about this movie is it was based on true story. This novel was inspired by Nicholas Spark's sister who later died of cancer in June 2002.

This story begin when Landon Carter, a popular student with no defined plans of future was thrown together in after-school community service with Jamie Sullivan, a reverend's daughter who has great ambition and nothing in common with Landon. But he starts to develop strong feeling for her, something he did not expect to do. The two start of relationship, much to the chagrin of Landon's old popular friend and Jamie's strict reverend father. But when a heart breaking secret becomes known that puts their relationship to test, it is then that they realize the true meaning of love and fate.

I've seen this movie over and over again for like four times now but I never get tired of it. It still sends me those familiar feelings. Maybe because I can relate perfectly with all the aspect of its plot. Here are the things I had figured out why I love this movie and what impact that had brought by this heart-warming movie.

Don't judge a book by its cover
We can never judge a person by his/her appearance or circle of friends. However bad a person is, and however wrong his choice of friends is,his heart might be good. Peer pressure had pressed Landon to be friends with naughty group but his heart still compelled him to save and apologize to that boy whom was so eager to be in that group.

Stay pure,girls!
At first it takes a while to adjust to a teen girl in a dowdy clothes. We ignore her,we want to see her in body-hugging clothes. That is what the worlds teaches women. To be hot you have to show it all off. And it's simply not true. I love this movie because it shows that Jamie whom is sticking to moral and staying chaste still can get an awesome guy. Yes,beauty is more than skin deep.

Unconditional love
Jamie and Landon fall in love with the knowledge that Jamie will not be living much longer due to her disease, Leukemia. This movie show that when you love someone, you will accept everything that comes between. Together witness how life throws for a loop. It gives the most painful hardships of our lives, but in turn we also receive the greatest gift God has given us and that's love.

Save your picture well
Even that movie was almost ten years ago,there was already the technology of editing picture. Lesson to ponder here girls,is that even then more that ten years ago,people can do whatever to your pictures. What about now? Sure,people can do more. Be careful what you post on the net, whatever pictures or videos. You will never want you face to be plastered on that flyers like Jamie's did.

There is such a thing called courtesy
There is a proper manner in asking a girl out,as shown in the movie when Landon went to see the Reverend to ask Jamie out. Well,how many guys do that these days? Asking the parents for permission in whatever you do. We,as a Muslim also have the proper manner in asking a girl to hand in marriage by asking their guardian. But how many men do that this day? Doing it in proper way shows your respect for the girl. The aim is for a lifetime,not just for a few passionate moments.

No matter what,always love your parents
This movie teaches about the scar a parent left to his kid when he walked away. Landon's parents had been divorced and he can't accept his father at first for what he did. This story really close to mine. It hurts and lasted for years. It's not an apparent scar you see on your skin,but it's the scar on your heart. At the end of the day, your parents are still your parents. No matter how hard or hurtful it got, or how grown up you've become, you still need that loving hug from your parents,those strong shoulder to cry on.

There is a miracle in our lifeFor Landon to fall in love with Jamie and changed to be a much better person was so out of place,that it become a miracle. For Jamie,her dream is to witness a miracle and she did it.Think about it and reflect back what happened in your life that you thought wasn't possible,but it happened anyway? That is your miracle. A miracle is deeper,more mysterious and it's in us. Too many times it's in front of us but we refuse to see for what it is.

Have faith
Well,this movie is all about keeping faith. Jamie had an unfailing faith until the end. Battling with her diseases had changed her into a girl who is strong enough,cherish every moment that she had and never lose faith in God. Faith gives us a reason for everything, so we won't run out of things to be thankful of. We only feel it when we believe it.

For those who haven't watched this movie yet, you better check of. And don't forget to prepare a box of tissue beside you. Hahaha. I'm sure you will shed a bucket of tears while witnessing the valuable lesson of love,faith and forgiveness. These are precious things all of us should be reminded of once in a while, in a time when everything is skeptic and fast-paced.

 

My life would be different if i am a telephatic

TELEPATHIC?
What on earth is that word mean? I'm pretty sure that most of us will in confusion when the first time hear about this strange word. So do I am. So let me tell you what this word means.

Telepathic means supposedly capable of transmitting thoughts to other people and knowing about their thoughts. Woww,sounds interesting right? Right now,my mind start to linger about things that i will do if am a telepathic. There's quite a lot of list of things-to-do i had in my mind right now.

The first and most important thing that i will do if am a telepathic is i'm sure that I will come into my crush's mind or more specifically which is Adam Levine. Hahahaha. I will transmit my thought to him so he will falling in love with me and I am able to melt his heart out and of course hoping that he will thinking of my face everyday and everywhere. Hahaha. Sounds impossible right? Honestly, it was very heart wrenching moment when knowing that he was getting married. If I am a telepathic person, of course I will make sure that the girl beside him in the picture below is me. Hahaha.

Besides, I also will read the artist's mind. About what happening in their life and what they think about their fans. Are they sincerely love their fans like all that they posted in social media or otherwise? I will also can spend my money from not buying magazines anymore to know about their gossips. That's the main point actually. Hehehe.

If am a telepathy person, I think it will be much easier for me to sit for any examination. Why? I think all of you will know what I'm thinking. Of course it will be easier because if i'm having some difficulties in answering any questions, I will simply read my friend's mind about what their answers are. Yes,I know it is an inappropriate thing to do. Don't try this. Hahaha.

I'm also hoping that I will have the chance to 'mind talking' with the United States of America's president. Of course all of you know who is that right? Yes, Obama. I'm imagining that there will be no mic and speakers but every single things that I want to talk and ask him will clearly hear by him without I need to open my mouth. Sounds amazing!

Next, I will use my telepathy to make money. Hehehe. How? I will gain money by doing show. Standing in front of the crowds, reading their minds and getting money surely will not be a big problem for me to do. As long as I get money. I will be rich with my telepathy power. Hahaha. I will also help the society with the power of telepathy by helping police to solve the crime. I will determine that the offenders really in fault or not. 

If I can read people's mind and transmit my thought, I really want to go to hospital. Watching people that laying weakly on their bed. Maybe some of them had lose their hope. Maybe some of them are questioning themselves why the diseases choose them,why not other people? I really want to put myself in their shoes. Knowing their feelings and know their real situation. If I am able, I will try my best to blow the positive thought in them. Giving some hopes for them for not giving up battling with their diseases and struggling to see the future.

Other than that, I will read the mind of my friends and people around me. Are they sincerely treat me well? Are they really likes to be friend with me? There will be no lies. I will see the person who really cares for me. Eventually I believe this will lead to complete honesty. Since there is simply no need to hide the fake emotions.

I will also try my best to solve any fights and wars that happened around us. I believe that wars or fights happen because of differences. Communication and interaction will reduces the number of differences, which would result in less conflict. Since I will able to tell apart sincere people from those who aren't, I will conquer the enemy's mind so that things will back to normal. No fights,no wars. I think lawyers would go broke since there are no people will need their services anymore. Hahahaha.

Under an extreme state of curiosity, if I were given the power of telepathy I will be inclined to read my mother's mind. I want to know what is the reason for each of her sorrow. I want to know how she can be really strong person. Wanting to see me happy is all she wants. Everyday I was amused with my mother since she knew what I was thinking and I could never lie to her. I thought she had telepathy but actually it was because of the instinct of a mother.

So that's all the things that I will do if I am a telepathic. But I'm sure there's will be some reasons why God not created me as a telepathic person. That's all for now. 

Standing on a stage. Having the courage to talk in front of people.
Sounds simple, right? But I’m sure that not all of us can do that. Especially when they are require to speak in English language. The key formula is only one thing.
CONFIDENCE.

I always admiring people who really confident in whatever they speak in front of people. For sure, they can drive out the positive vibes to the people who listening to them. How comes they can be too confident? How they overcome all that adrenaline rush in their body? I keep wondering and wondering.

Until one day, my English teacher asked me to participate in a competition that required me to fully speak in English. What??? Am I will be able to do well? What happens if I make mistakes? I’m sure both of my leg will shiver and my heart will pounding fast as it want to pop out from my body at that time. Hahahaha. Such a low self-esteem person I am. From that time, I had learned to become more confident especially to speak in English. So for this entry, I will share with you guys 10 tips on how to be confident to speak in English.
Let start now!

1. MAKE FRIENDS WITH ENGLISH SPEAKER PEOPLE
When we make friends with people who speak English fluently, indirectly we can learn from them to speak by listening to the way how the pronounce a word and also the way they arrange the sentences. They also can help us by correcting our mistakes and of course there will be improvement from time to time.

2. PRACTICE AND PREPARE
‘Practice makes perfect’. Try to practice to speak English each and every day. We can practice in front of mirror (self-practice) or maybe find a partner to practice together. This will make you become used to be to speak in English.

3. SPEAK OUT LOUD
This way had helped me a lot. I used to buy English novel and read it out loud. Imagining that I speak in front of hundreds of people at that time. Sometimes I felt like a crazy people talking to myself but it was undeniably had effectively helped me.

4. CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE
We need to wash away the negative perception of our peoples. Neglect what other people will say. Just go on, make the negative perception as a challenge to become more high spirit and do your best to speak English.

5. RECORD YOURSELF
Record your voice speaking in English and play it again after record it. This may help you to make improvement from time to time. By this way, you can recognise what is your mistakes or maybe your inappropriate speaking tones and change it to be more better.

6. WATCH ENGLISH MOVIES WITHOUT SUBTITLE
This will be quiet challenging to you at first. (so do I actually,hahaha). When watching English movies without subtitle, you will try your best to hear carefully their words in order to understand it. Of course you will not want the excitement of the movies slip away right?

7. CONFIDENT TO START A CONVERSATION
Build up your confident to start a conversation with your friends in your daily life. It will work best if you can find friends that use English as their mother tongue language.

8. NEVER AFRAID TO MAKE MISTAKES
It is okay if you make a lot of mistakes. Making mistake is one of a learning process. Maybe by doing mistakes, you will remember it well and not repeat the same mistakes again.

9. EXPERIMENT WITH NEW WORDS EVERYDAY
Try out to build different kinds of sentences each and every day. Don’t afraid to experiment with new words and also new style of words arrangement. This will help you a lot to grab the audience’s attention when you master in this.

10. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
Just believe that no matter how hard to acquire a language is, there’s must be a way for you. If other people can speak that language confidently, so do you. Just believe in yourself.

                             So, that’s all for now. I hope you guys will make use of all that tips well. 

Never give up in learning English because once you master it, I’m sure you will love it.

Keep it up and good luck!

Challenges In Acquiring English Languange

Hello guys!! So this is my second entry. Lets begin with the name of Allah. 

When i reminiscing the old days, I still remembered an incident that had happened when I was still a child. Maybe I was around 10 years old ( I'm not really sure) at that time. Even though it already happened long time ago, but it still vivid in my mind. I once had a new friend that just moved to our school at that time. She spoke English fluently. All of my teachers were amazed with her ability to speak English and often became the apple of teacher's eyes. But me and all my friends was really annoyed and envy with that girl. What a shameful action I had did! Hahahaha. Such a childish person I was.


But now I realize that English is everything in our life. By hook or by crook we must learn how to speak English fluently. Actually,I really love to watch English movies. A movie's ghost sometimes.Well,I'm sure it was quiet upsetting when you watch a movie without a subtitle. Of course not only me but also you, do not want to slip over the important things they say in that movies. So I need to acquire English to become a good speaker and also a good listener of English Language.





Honestly,there was so many challenges that I had faced in order to acquiring English at first. But I need to push my limit to learn English because profession as a doctor will deal with a lot of peoples. I can't expecting all of them will speak in my mother tongue language. Of course there will be so many challenges that I had faced in acquiring English Language.

1.CONFIDENCE.
I never had them in myself before. I need to admit I am girl who really have low self esteem before. I'm afraid if I will make mistakes and people will laugh at me. I'm sure many of us had this problems right?

2.PEOPLE'S PERCEPTION
Then, I also had faced our people's lame perception. They always tend to think that people who speak in English just want to show off and such a snob person. (So do I before,that's my mistake) hahaha. We need to get rid of that perception by now.

3.LACKING OF BOOKS
I have to admit that there was so not so many choices when it comes to borrow English books in my library. So I need to buy it by myself if I want to read a particular book. Honestly,it had cost quite a lot of money. But people always said that 'Money is the ticket to getaway of knowledge'.

4.DIFFERENT PRONUNCIATION

For example in movies,there is a lot of slang and colloquial language that is used. So i had practiced myself to watch many television programs and also listened to radio stations in which English is used.

5.GRAMMAR
I'm pretty sure that most of us had this problem.Given a examination papers that full of red ink on it is a sign that there is many grammar error in our writing and for sure is such a nightmare.Because of that,most of us is afraid to speak in English in and also writing essay in English. 

6.RARELY USE IN DAILY CONVERSATION
This one also a big problem to me before. Of course it is because we usually talk with our friends in our mother tongue language which is Malay. Realizing that it was a big problem to me, I started to practice to use English in my daily conversations. Practice makes perfect,right?

7.NOT HAVING PARTNER TO PRACTICE SPEAKING SKILLS
At first,I always practiced to speak in front of mirror. Until sometimes my mom quiet curious with whom I talked with. Hahaha. And I realized that I need to find a partner to help me improving my speaking skills and also correcting my errors.

8.DIFFICULTY IN UNDERSTANDING NEW WORDS
When reading English books such as Shakespeare, I often puzzled about the meaning of particular words. So I taking an action by listed down the new words that I found in the books that I had read to make it as my reference in other days.

9.HESITATE TO SPEAK
Just be confident. everyone of us has the right to speak out their mind loud. Never afraid to break the grammatical rules. It is one of learning process,right?

10.EDUCATION SYSTEM
It was undeniable that our education system is quite poor. For example,for secondary school the system had been changed again from English to Malay when it comes to learn about Science stream. It can confuse our students actually and also lessen the chances for them to acquire English Language.

So that's all for now. I hope people out there that have the desire to learn English, just go with it until your limit. Don't ever stop until you grab it. Never give up and keep it up guys!

        

The new me

So here I am guys! The same person but obviously with new surrounding,new friends,and of course with new daily routine. All my life already turned completely different since the first day I enter the university. I need to become a person with new high spirit in order to adapt with new university's life. It was quite hectic for me at first but eventually I managed to adapt with it. What I imagined was totally not what I faced right now. But this is what I want in my life, which is to be a doctor one day. The journey to become a doctor is not full with bed of roses but there is always thorns along it. In order to success, I need to become a new person that always try harder and also need to be mentally and physically strong to achieve my goal. 

When I was young, I was always wondering why everybody that pass their examination with flying colours will tend to take medical course and want to become a doctor. Is there no other job rather than doctor that can suit with excellent students? It was unfair. Honestly, at first I was quite annoyed with our people's mentality about sending their children that get good grades during secondary school to further study in medical course. I just think that why other professions can't get 'special place' like doctor in our people's heart. I was once want to be an engineer before but what God had planned for me is better than what I want.

 "Sometimes what we think is good for us,might be not good. But what we think bad for us is also not surely will be bad.-Mufti Menk" 

We will never know how our future are,what we will go through in our life and who will be beside us along our journey. So at last, I am here. Furthering my study in medical course(that I used to get annoyed before but surely not now) and will be your doctor 6 years from now. Of course there is a turning point that already changed my ambition to become a doctor. I finally changed my mind because I always saw many people that close to me throughout my life had faced different kinds of disease. I was a little bit frustrated and sad when I can't do any beneficial things to help them rather than seeing them struggling to fight with their diseases. It was totally heart wrenching to me. From that day onward, I started to change my mind to become a useful person not only to people around me but also to other people out there that need my help. Because I always thinks that while I live in imperfection,it feels like it's my duty to at least make the people around me happy and spread the positive vibes among the people.

Before I made decision to further study in medical course, I was always exposed with 'cliche' story about how busy and foggy days a doctor's life is. When doing the housemanship, medical students always well known as 'the walking zombie'. How comes they not being called like that when sometimes they need to work not less than 24 hours in a day. Because of that, I always think that am I strong enough to become a doctor? It was undeniable that my heart pounding fast and of course quite afraid to make decision whether to accept or to reject the offer to study medical because of that perception. But at last I decided to accept the offer. Starting from the day i'd accepted it, I already promised to myself to become a new me. Who always be prepared in whatever situation is and also willing to sacrifice my time and my energy to save others people's lives.

"I can't change the world but maybe I can help someone for not losing hopes to stare at the same sky"