The new me

So here I am guys! The same person but obviously with new surrounding,new friends,and of course with new daily routine. All my life already turned completely different since the first day I enter the university. I need to become a person with new high spirit in order to adapt with new university's life. It was quite hectic for me at first but eventually I managed to adapt with it. What I imagined was totally not what I faced right now. But this is what I want in my life, which is to be a doctor one day. The journey to become a doctor is not full with bed of roses but there is always thorns along it. In order to success, I need to become a new person that always try harder and also need to be mentally and physically strong to achieve my goal. 

When I was young, I was always wondering why everybody that pass their examination with flying colours will tend to take medical course and want to become a doctor. Is there no other job rather than doctor that can suit with excellent students? It was unfair. Honestly, at first I was quite annoyed with our people's mentality about sending their children that get good grades during secondary school to further study in medical course. I just think that why other professions can't get 'special place' like doctor in our people's heart. I was once want to be an engineer before but what God had planned for me is better than what I want.

 "Sometimes what we think is good for us,might be not good. But what we think bad for us is also not surely will be bad.-Mufti Menk" 

We will never know how our future are,what we will go through in our life and who will be beside us along our journey. So at last, I am here. Furthering my study in medical course(that I used to get annoyed before but surely not now) and will be your doctor 6 years from now. Of course there is a turning point that already changed my ambition to become a doctor. I finally changed my mind because I always saw many people that close to me throughout my life had faced different kinds of disease. I was a little bit frustrated and sad when I can't do any beneficial things to help them rather than seeing them struggling to fight with their diseases. It was totally heart wrenching to me. From that day onward, I started to change my mind to become a useful person not only to people around me but also to other people out there that need my help. Because I always thinks that while I live in imperfection,it feels like it's my duty to at least make the people around me happy and spread the positive vibes among the people.

Before I made decision to further study in medical course, I was always exposed with 'cliche' story about how busy and foggy days a doctor's life is. When doing the housemanship, medical students always well known as 'the walking zombie'. How comes they not being called like that when sometimes they need to work not less than 24 hours in a day. Because of that, I always think that am I strong enough to become a doctor? It was undeniable that my heart pounding fast and of course quite afraid to make decision whether to accept or to reject the offer to study medical because of that perception. But at last I decided to accept the offer. Starting from the day i'd accepted it, I already promised to myself to become a new me. Who always be prepared in whatever situation is and also willing to sacrifice my time and my energy to save others people's lives.

"I can't change the world but maybe I can help someone for not losing hopes to stare at the same sky"